So Excited

I haven't been so good at keeping the old blog up lately - mostly because I've been completely unmotivated and exhausted. This is a good thing for you though, because since I've been completely exhausted our lives have been extremely boring and I've had absolutely nothing to write about anyway.

Back to being exhausted though.....there is a good reason for all of this and it's because I'm pregnant!

Well there we have it, the cats out of the bag! It's actually not much of a secret anymore as we started telling the world (i.e. facebook) on Thanksgiving.

Thrilled does not even begin to express how Steve and I feel! We were a little surprised when we found out, to be perfectly honest. We had literally just started trying and then 2 weeks later I was pregnant. I was not prepared for that at all and figured it would take a good 6 months to a year, but apparently Steve does in fact have "super sperm" (his term, not mine) like he's been bragging about for the past 6 weeks.

So anyway, I'm about 10 weeks along right now and due on June 29th. We had an ultrasound that looked good and my midwife seems to think that things are progressing perfectly.

I've been exhausted and kind of sick and these last few days have been especially miserable with those round ligament pains I heard so much about when I first got pregnant. Last night I was in so much pain every time that I tried to lay down and go to sleep that at midnight I finally ended up going down the living room to sleep sitting up in one of our arm chairs. Not so comfortable, but at least I wasn't in as much pain.

Time is passing by so quickly and I'll soon be out of the first trimester (Thank God!) and I know that before we know it our little one will be here. I've been overwhelmed with how much we need to do in a short amount of time and am constantly reminded about how much life is going to change. I'm pretty scared, but full of excitement at the same time.

God has been so good to us and I am so thankful! What way to bring in the holidays!
Here's a picture of our little bean...I think he/she kinds of looks like like a little chicken in there, Steve thinks it looks like it's smoking a cig. Hopefully we have neither going on in there! :)

Tis' so sweet to trust in Jesus....

Today I woke up feeling so happy that I have Jesus to put my trust in.

Things have been stressful with family drama, issues at Steve's work and of course just life in general and I feel like I've been just been living in a constant state of feeling overwhelmed.
It's so nice to know that in spite of it all, I may not have all the answers that I feel I want or need, but that doesn't mean that God isn't at work.
What a relief that I don't have to do it all on my own!

Now, the hard part is learning to rest and trust that everything is going to work out okay. When I stop and think about it all to much I tend to allow myself to feel overwhelmed. I know there's a level of reality and personal responsibility that I need to think about, but I love how God is so gentle to remind me that He's working out details that I don't yet see of understand.

Now, if only I would just learn to stop worrying about circumstances that are out of my control! I guess that part's a work in progress.....

Weekend with friends...

It was a good (but busy) weekend. I loved having Nadia here and really enjoyed getting to know Justin. He's a good guy and they seem really happy together, which therefore makes ME happy. Steve and Justin hit it off immediately, which is huge as a lot of times it takes Steve awhile to warm up to people. We had a good weekend with lots of laughs and not enough sleep. Did I mention that it was absolutely GORGEOUS in Madison this weekend? Yep, we were able to walk around outside with no coats and soak up the sun. It was so nice.
We have officially taken a break from working on the house. We are both exhausted, overwhelmed, burnt out and missing spending time with friends. So, in light of all that we've decided to take a few weeks off before we start up with our projects again. We will get everything done by the time Jess moves in with us in January. So much to do, so little time.

Speaking of time, I'm out of it. Gotta go!

Meeting the Man.....

I haven't been on the ol' blog for awhile. Things have been absolutely crazy at work to the point where I'm laying awake at night gain worrying about everything I need to get done. That has made for not just a cranky Jenny, but an exhausted Jenny all in one. Not fun....for me or anyone around me.

Hopefully I'll be able to get over myself this weekend and have a great time with Nadia up for a visit. I've been anxiously awaiting this visit, because Nadia's not just coming up on her own, but she's bringing her boyfriend along with so I can meet him. We've been planning this trip for a few months and I'm so glad that she's given me such a long time to warm up to the idea of this new guy in her life. Maybe I shouldn't call him such a new guy, because in fact he was the old guy that was in her life at about this time last year...that was just before he completely broke her heart though. Now, here they are back together again.

I consider myself to be a pretty easy person to get along with. It's rare that I meet someone that I don't like and I normally have a pretty peaceful relationship with most. There's just this teeny tiny problem that I have been known to have though...I may just be a little to overprotective of my girlfriends when it comes to them having boyfriends.

Take Sara (my childhood best friend) for example. I think she was afraid for her life when I came back from Mexico after spring break of our junior year. She told me had been hanging out with this guy Sam while I was away. Immediately I called everyone I knew that could possibly know Sam and grilled them on what he was about. I was so not happy with everything I heard (although, looking back now, even then he was a good guy) and upon meeting Sam for the first time told him exactly what I thought. Needless to say that didn't go so well and Sam and I had a very strained relationship for at least a year after that. What's so awesome is that people can change. I chose to see Sam for who he used to be, not who he had become. I was extremely judgemental and it was wrong.

I stood up as Sara's maid of honor just a few years after that when she married Sam and couldn't be more happy that she was marrying an amazing man who absolutely adores her. They are perfect for each other and he is such a great guy. (Side note...Sam is currently in England competing in the Para-Cycling Worship Championships, check out how he's doing here or go to his personal website and read his amazing story about being caught in avalanche where he not only lost his good friend, but also became an amputee here.)

Back to Nadia and the boy-toy though. I'm so glad that I've had a few months to warm up to the thought of this guy being with my good friend. At first I was just so afraid that he was going to break her heart (again) that I hated the idea of them as a couple. I so easily forget that people can change and I find that when it relates to someone that I love a lot, I become a monster and find myself being judgemental and assuming of intentions when it's not my place to be. I don't like being judged for mistakes that I've made in the past, but seem to think it's okay that I do it to others. Slowly but surely I am learning. This weekend I am making a choice to get to know Justin as the great guy that Nadia talks about. All I want is for my friend to be happy, and this guy seems to give that to her, so I guess really I should be thanking him, right? Okay, maybe I'm not to that point yet, but I'm working on it! :)