LOST

Tomorrow is the big day......LOST returns! I am SO excited! Lost is my favorite show of all time and I'm so anxious to find out what happens this season! It's been 8 whole long months since the season finale and the suspense has been killing me about what's going to happen next!
Steve was sick last weekend so we spent our entire day on Saturday catching up on our Season 3 DVD set (thanks mom for the great Christmas gift!) and it made me even more excited for Season 4!
We're having a "Lost Returns" party at our house on Thursday night so if anyone in the area (which is pretty much no one that reads this blog) wants to stop by all are welcome!

living or surviving?

I don't know why but for some reason today I've been thinking a lot about getting back to my roots....you know, back to the good ol' days and the good ol' ways.
I'm a Montana girl at heart and I always will be. One thing I love about people from Montana is that they're just so laid back. For some odd reason I appreciate that, which I find odd beings that I'm a very scheduled and detailed person. I think I just like the idea of living by the seat of my pants....more I should say I like thinking about it, actually living that way kind of stresses me out. Maybe that's not such a good thing though and I just need to learn to relax a little more.

Anyway...I'm kind of starting to realize that life doesn't always have to be quite as complex as I try to make it. Maybe I should just start living a little bit an allow myself to sit back, drink a cup of tea and listen to my favorite Waterdeep album without thinking about the 10,000 other things I should be doing.
I sometimes feel like I spend more time THINKING about life then I do actually LIVING it.

I've had a rough day....one of those days where I just want to come home and relax, but the really sad part is that I feel ackward when I think about relaxing anymore because I'm realizing that don't really know how to do that. Sad huh? My life really isn't all that crazy and complex as you would think, I think I just make it that way because that's the best way I know how to survive, and I'm realizing that that's not really living at all. In fact....it kind of sucks. Anyway...that's just some stuff that's on my mind today, that and the fact that I'm really excited that tomorrow's Friday.........finally.

thankful....

Sometimes I have these moments where I just have to stop and think about how great life is.
It's in the moments like this....you know, the moments where you're sitting on the couch watching a re-run of Gray's Anatomy and your husband is sitting next to you reading a book and your house is actually clean enough where you can enjoy it that you just have to sit back, breathe in deep, and thank God for a great life.

I'm sure in the worldly standards there's a whole lot of people a whole lot better off than I am....even more there's also a whole lot of people worse off than I am, but I can't help but think that I have a really great life.

I have wonderful husband that really loves me and is pretty much the nicest guy in the whole world, we may be broke by society's standards, but really we never go without so I feel pretty rich, we have some of the greatest friends ever that we know will always be there for us no matter what, and last but certainly not least we have a really cute dog. That's gotta count for something right?
I'm realizing as the years pass by the the simple life really isnt' all that bad, in fact I kind of actually like it.
I'm learning to slow down and not focus so much on the future that I let today pass me by, and I'm learning to actually stop and smell the coffee rather than just guzzle it down.

Life is meant to be lived to the fullest, but it's really hard to do that with this busy culture that we live in.

I'm not one to make New Years resolutions, but if there's one thing that I want to work on this year it's just to learn to relax and enjoy life. It sometimes feels like life is passing me by so quickly that I don't even have time to take it all in, this year I want to learn to slow down. If that means not committing to so much, learning to say no, or even simply not keeping my schedule so busy with "fun" stuff that I miss out on plain good ol' relaxing with a good cup of coffee and my favorite magazine, (which happens to be "Real Simple" ironically) than so be it!

Life is short and I want to learn to savor every minute of it!