Oh sweet target!

I've got the Thursday blues!
It seems like this week is taking FOREVER to pass!

The noteworthy things about my week thus far........ Yesterday I was having lunch with a rich girl and somehow the subject of Target came up. I found it really cute when she very seriously said to me "Oh I like Target! Sometimes I even want to buy clothes there!"

It was hard to control myself from laughing out loud and I thought to myself...."Sometimes I even want to buy clothes at consignment shops" but I didn't' want to scare the poor little rich girl who might be just a little naive but still is a really great person with the sweetest heart so I decided to just kept quiet.

I thought it was sweet and amusing at the same time.

Mehico!

Steve and I went to a flooring store this weekend to look for some pergo for our dining room. The lady helping us asked our names and after introductions were made she said "my husband is Mexican too, now what kind of flooring can I help you find today?"

I guess I never got the memo but it sounds like anyone with brown hair and and brown eyes must be Mexican now. I'm glad my new friend (who I apparently have so much in common with) let me know.
I figued I'd pass the info on to all of you as well in case you were in the dark like me.

Um......Adios?

Reception Horrors!

So Saturday was just a plain old weird day. We went to a funeral and straight from there had to go a wedding.
It was so odd going to a wedding and celebrating a new life that was beginning for 2 people when we had just come from mourning a life that had ended.

Anyway....so the noteworthy thing about this wedding which I found really funny was the dancing! I'll say in advance this couple is just a little bit odd.
We were enjoying ourselves (really we were kind of bored) at this reception when they said "it's time for the father of the bride and the mother of the groom to come up."
"How sweet" I thought I always like to watch the father daughter dance. So the music starts playing and I think "something must be wrong here" No though...everything was going as planned. The thing i found odd that the father/daughter dance was to a song entitled "When I make love to you" what I found even funnier was the no one else except for Steve and I and the friend that was with us seemed to think this was an odd dance for the parents with their children.

So could someone PLEASE tell me.....is this normal that for the father/daughter dance at a weddings the song would be about getting it on? I have never seen this before but I seemed to be alone out everyone at this wedding for finding it a little odd.

Odd it is I guess and that's okay with me!

Life and Death

Lately my thoughts have been about how short life is.
It seems this summer has been a summer of experiencing death for so many people close to me.
How fragile life is has really become so real to me and has really challenged the way I live my life. I've seen the devastation that so many of the people I love are experiencing because of unexpected deaths in their family. There's so many questions I want answers to.....Like why a young girl loses the brother that she really looks up to?
Why do 3 teenagers lose the mother that has been the only source of stability for them in their life? Why do these things happen? I know eventually everyone will die but when it seems it's before their time should be up it brings so many questions to my heart simply because I too know my days are numbered.

All these questions I don't nor will ever know the answers too but I know that life is precious, life is short and life is meant to be lived to the fullest.
I want to do that.....Above all I want to live a life of love.

I almost feel bad for trying to make the most out of my life when I know so many people that I love are experiencing such a great loss of life.
I couldn't imagine waking up in the morning and not having my husband there with me every day for the rest of my life. I don't want to take the people I love for granted and I want them to know how much I love them.

Too much time is wasted on the mundane and not enough is spent on the real important things. I want to learn what it means to truly live life to the fullest.

thoughts on the state of the world and the state of my heart.

I just heard about a terror plot that was uncovered overnight in Great Britian. So far 21 people have been arrested and they believed they were trying to bring liquid explosives onto planes flying from Great Britian to the US.


I just don't get what's going on. It's sad to me that this is life now and hearing news like this no longer suprises me.


Sometimes I get afraid.....mostly though lately I've just felt such an urgency inside me when I heard about all that's going on in the world. It's so easy to take life for granted but lately I've just been realizing really how short life is and how much life I'm wasting.
I think of all the people I love, all the people I see every day, and all the people that I no longer keep in touch with and it just makes me realize that what's the most important in life really is people and relationships.
I never want to let myself get so busy that I forget what' most important but yet still it seems like it happens every day.


I know I'm not here on earth just to live a normal mediocre life but yet sometimes that's what I make it. I want to make a difference, I want to be someone that lives extraordinarily but that takes getting out of my apathetic state.

I'm fortunate to have a hope inside of me and I couldn't imagine living life without that hope. I know and trust that regardless of what goes on in the world there's a God that loves me and that's all that really matters. Because of that I have such a peace when I really stop and ponder the the extremity of how God's plans for me go above and beyond what I could ever imagine.
I feel honored that He chooses to let me know Him more and I feel ashamed that I don't seek after what He has for me with every fiber in me with every moment I'm breathing.

There's so much I feel that I miss every day because I just don't stop and take the time to let God in like I should. There's so many people I know and love that don't have any hope for their life and it makes me feel such an urgency inside of me to share with them the hope I have. There's so many great people I know that live great lives but yet it breaks my heart to see them missing out on the greatest gift in life - the life abundant that if i chooose I can experience every day.


Why do I keep this great key to live to myself? It's not that I'm ashamed of it....sometimes I think it's more that I don't want to be one of those pushy Christians I've come to dislike. I get angry when the people I love have God shoved down their throats by perfect strangers that don't even know them so at the risk of seeming like one of those pushy Christians I back off and hope my life speaks for itself. I'm finding though that that's not quite good enough. You see.....there's a lot of really GREAT people out there but they're still people that don't have the hope I do.

So who am I to think that what I have is what everyone else needs? I'm sure that seems conceited and that's what a lot of people think. I know we live in a "what works for you is great for you" culture. The beauty of the freedom that our country offers is that you can pretty much think however you want and that's okay.

I find myself hiding behind that sometimes. Some of the kindest people I know that challenge me to be a better person are the people that don't share the same religious feelings I do. So.....who am I to tell them all their missing out on when they have much more love and compassion that I do?
Regardless of how great or even how horrible people may be I have a responsibility - to them and to God to share with them how much more abundant their life could be. To think of the wonderful people I love living a great life with a tragic eternity is more that my heart can handle.

I'm realizing that I just need to get over myself and get out of my comfort zone. So what if the people I love think I'm crazy? God has put me in their lives for a reason and I have responsibility to them to share with them just this one simple truth : that Jesus loves them and died for them so they could be free from paying for all the bad things they've ever done.


What a free gift and yet I'm to lazy to give it out!

old skool!

Gosh....I've been getting lots of emails from old high school friends lately and it's been so weird. I love keeping in contact with people that knew me in a completely different season of life. WOW! I have changed SO much it's amazing!

It makes me realize how short life is. It just seems like yesterday I was graduating from high school but yet in reality it's practically time for a 10 year reunion. Sometimes I wish I could go back to the good ol' carefree days but what a great feeling it is that I can look back and not have a whole bunch of regrets. That's one of my biggest fears in life is that one day I'll be lying on my death bed and be thinking of all the regrets I have. Sure....there's some different little choices I might have made different - like maybe reach out a little more to what we called the geeks (who i'm sure are succesful individuals today) instead of just politely being nice to them when I could have been sticking up for them but other than that I think I've lived a good life and have a lot left to live to the fullest.

Above all I want to make people the most important in my life. Work won't matter when you're breathing your last breath but how much you loved people will and that's what I never want to lose sight of. Sometimes I get distracted but it's good to have a good kick in the rear to remind me every now and then

Anyway so that's it now for my nostalgia. Here's a picture of me from back in the day that I thought was kind of amusing - I was a sophmore in high school and was the homecoming princess.