Life and Death

Lately my thoughts have been about how short life is.
It seems this summer has been a summer of experiencing death for so many people close to me.
How fragile life is has really become so real to me and has really challenged the way I live my life. I've seen the devastation that so many of the people I love are experiencing because of unexpected deaths in their family. There's so many questions I want answers to.....Like why a young girl loses the brother that she really looks up to?
Why do 3 teenagers lose the mother that has been the only source of stability for them in their life? Why do these things happen? I know eventually everyone will die but when it seems it's before their time should be up it brings so many questions to my heart simply because I too know my days are numbered.

All these questions I don't nor will ever know the answers too but I know that life is precious, life is short and life is meant to be lived to the fullest.
I want to do that.....Above all I want to live a life of love.

I almost feel bad for trying to make the most out of my life when I know so many people that I love are experiencing such a great loss of life.
I couldn't imagine waking up in the morning and not having my husband there with me every day for the rest of my life. I don't want to take the people I love for granted and I want them to know how much I love them.

Too much time is wasted on the mundane and not enough is spent on the real important things. I want to learn what it means to truly live life to the fullest.