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It's no secret that I have the baby bug. I was hoping that a trip back to St. Louis and hanging out with the Thompson kids would cure that. I love those kids, but they are a handful. No such luck though. All it did was remind me of how much I miss them in my life thus giving me even more of an "itch" for some little ones of my own.
When we we first got married the plan was to wait for 5 years to have kids. We just passed the 3 year mark. I think the reality that I'm going to be 30 in a few weeks has really set in though. I'm beginning to realize that if we want more than one child we need to start popping those kiddo's out soon!
On the other hand though, I have felt so ready to start a family in the recent months that I've finally had to come to the point where I'm just willing to lay that down. It's not that we've been trying and have been unable to have children, but it's more that it's just not wise and responsible for us to even consider having children right now. I know that really we'll never be 100% ready for children, but at least until Steve knows that he has a full time permanent job even considering it is not an option, in fact it would be pure selfishness. So, it's been a journey these past several weeks as I've been trying to be "ok" with us putting the idea of kids on the backburner.
I know that ultimately God knows what's best for us better then we do, so I'm trying to come to the point where I'm just okay with whatever (and whenever) He decides the timing is right for us to have little ones.
In the meantime though, I will lay down my desires and although both Steve and I are at a place of wanting children we will enjoy every minute that we have where it's just the two of us. Make no mistake, I know and am prepared for the reality that having kids changes EVERYTHING!
When we we first got married the plan was to wait for 5 years to have kids. We just passed the 3 year mark. I think the reality that I'm going to be 30 in a few weeks has really set in though. I'm beginning to realize that if we want more than one child we need to start popping those kiddo's out soon!
On the other hand though, I have felt so ready to start a family in the recent months that I've finally had to come to the point where I'm just willing to lay that down. It's not that we've been trying and have been unable to have children, but it's more that it's just not wise and responsible for us to even consider having children right now. I know that really we'll never be 100% ready for children, but at least until Steve knows that he has a full time permanent job even considering it is not an option, in fact it would be pure selfishness. So, it's been a journey these past several weeks as I've been trying to be "ok" with us putting the idea of kids on the backburner.
I know that ultimately God knows what's best for us better then we do, so I'm trying to come to the point where I'm just okay with whatever (and whenever) He decides the timing is right for us to have little ones.
In the meantime though, I will lay down my desires and although both Steve and I are at a place of wanting children we will enjoy every minute that we have where it's just the two of us. Make no mistake, I know and am prepared for the reality that having kids changes EVERYTHING!
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