Always on my mind....

I woke up with lots on my mind this morning. Lately I feel like I've been letting my mind run wild, and that's a dangerous thing.

I've had some stuff going on that really is little and trivial, but I feel like I've let myself think about it so much that it's become a giant in my life, and not in a healthy way. It's so hard to not let my mind run crazy sometimes and because of that I tend to make mountains out of molehills. I'm not saying I'm an advocate of stuffing problems to avoid dealing with them, but I do think that sometimes trivial things turn into problems that should have never been considered problems in the first place had they not had the opportunity to be broken down and contemplated so heavily. Now you can see why mind is full of thoughts, sometimes I even confuse myself.

In the midst of all my thoughts at 5:00 am, I figured I might as well just get up and enjoy the silence. Steve had left extra early this morning to meet a friend for coffee before work and the house was silent and peaceful. I made myself a latte and decided that it was time to dust off some really old CD's that had never even made it into i-tunes library (Delirious, Cutting Edge albums for those of you who may be interested). Music has such a calming effect on me.

As I was enjoying my latte filled, baby free (don't worry, he was here, just sleeping) morning I realized that really I always seem to make life way more complex then it should be. For not being all that smart, I seem to constantly over analyze everything to an annoying extend. Really, what I realized though is that at the end of the day my life comes down to two questions:

Did I love Jesus with all of my heart today, and did I love others like Jesus has shown love to me? Really, it's that simple. Love God, Love People. Why do we (I) as human beings make it so complicated sometimes? I think it's when we forget about the simplicity of the gospel and loving Jesus that we lose our balance in life. I know for me, it's true.

There is such complexity to these two simple solutions that literally can solve every conundrum in life, and although love is easier said than done, I think we over complicate, over analyze and all around disregard the simple power of it.

For me, I've got the loving people down for today (at least for the 4 hours I've been awake), but it's the loving God, or more letting him love me and trusting in that love that is my challenge for the day.

Here we go!