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It's time for an update on life.
First off I'm living in a pit.
Sunday night we had a birthday party to go to and 25 minutes before we were supposed to be leaving Steve & I got the sudden urge to rip up the carpet in our dining room. It was quite a risky move because we weren't really sure what was underneath the carpet but come to find out there was some okay looking hardwood floors undearneath all that crap.
Now all of our dining room furniture (table included) is in our tiny little living room because now that the carpet is gone we're not sure what to do with our new found wood floors. We're not the craftiest couple so now we need to figure if and how we need to refinish our floors and until then our lives will be lived in confusion.
Sorry folks, but don't come knocking on our door for awhile unless you want to feel like you're sitting in the middle of a junkyard.
I guess we should have thoughts things out a little better BEFORE we decided to rip up our carpet but sometimes it's fun to live by the seat of your pants, right?
On another note I went to a job interview last week. It was an interview for a construction company - it was actually an opportunity I was sought out for not me looking for a job. Anyway....I was kind of excited because it was a pretty well paying job and would solve a lot of our problems.
So I went to the interview - it's about 30 minutes away and the office where i interviewed was really dirty looking. After my interview I was pretty much promised the job but the interviewee (if that is a word) said I would get the final confirmation on Friday.
I came home from the interview and just felt sad. I couldn't really figure it out because I should have felt really excited, but something inside of me was just dreading the thought of this possible new job. I later shared with Steve how I felt. I felt like I didn't really have many options - this job would solve a lot of our financial problems and would also free up money up for us to financially support some of the missionaries we've been wanting to help out - something that has been a desire of my heart for a long time now.
Something inside of me just didn't feel excited though. I just had a hard time figuring out what I would do if this job were to be offered to me. So...Steve and I really prayed about it and just asked God to close the door if this wasn't what He had for me.
Friday came and I got a letter in the mail. Apparently I was overqualified for the job and they'd rather hire someone they could pay less. Most people would be saddedned by this news but words cannot express the joy I felt in my heart after reading this rejection letter. It's strange I know but I now realize that this job would have made me feel like a corpse. In no way would I enjoy even ONE aspect of this job other than the paycheck.
So now I am back to square one. The Real Estate business is okay but I'm just realizing that I just feel dead if I'm not working at a job where I feel I can somehow help people. I want to do something that makes me feel fulfilled and like I'm actually doing something for the good of others.
I just don't know what that is but through my experience last week I've realized that I just can't settle for feeling mediocre and unfulfilled. I really don't know where to go from here but I feel like I've gained some perspective and I just know I have to be true to myself and to who God created me to be and how He created me to feel. I don't know where that will lead me - I wish I did in fact but until I do know I just gotta be patient and somehow learn to take heart with the unfulfillment I feel in my life right now and just trust that something better is just around the corner. Hopefully I'll get to that corner quickly but until I do I just want to be faithful with where God has me now.
First off I'm living in a pit.
Sunday night we had a birthday party to go to and 25 minutes before we were supposed to be leaving Steve & I got the sudden urge to rip up the carpet in our dining room. It was quite a risky move because we weren't really sure what was underneath the carpet but come to find out there was some okay looking hardwood floors undearneath all that crap.
Now all of our dining room furniture (table included) is in our tiny little living room because now that the carpet is gone we're not sure what to do with our new found wood floors. We're not the craftiest couple so now we need to figure if and how we need to refinish our floors and until then our lives will be lived in confusion.
Sorry folks, but don't come knocking on our door for awhile unless you want to feel like you're sitting in the middle of a junkyard.
I guess we should have thoughts things out a little better BEFORE we decided to rip up our carpet but sometimes it's fun to live by the seat of your pants, right?
On another note I went to a job interview last week. It was an interview for a construction company - it was actually an opportunity I was sought out for not me looking for a job. Anyway....I was kind of excited because it was a pretty well paying job and would solve a lot of our problems.
So I went to the interview - it's about 30 minutes away and the office where i interviewed was really dirty looking. After my interview I was pretty much promised the job but the interviewee (if that is a word) said I would get the final confirmation on Friday.
I came home from the interview and just felt sad. I couldn't really figure it out because I should have felt really excited, but something inside of me was just dreading the thought of this possible new job. I later shared with Steve how I felt. I felt like I didn't really have many options - this job would solve a lot of our financial problems and would also free up money up for us to financially support some of the missionaries we've been wanting to help out - something that has been a desire of my heart for a long time now.
Something inside of me just didn't feel excited though. I just had a hard time figuring out what I would do if this job were to be offered to me. So...Steve and I really prayed about it and just asked God to close the door if this wasn't what He had for me.
Friday came and I got a letter in the mail. Apparently I was overqualified for the job and they'd rather hire someone they could pay less. Most people would be saddedned by this news but words cannot express the joy I felt in my heart after reading this rejection letter. It's strange I know but I now realize that this job would have made me feel like a corpse. In no way would I enjoy even ONE aspect of this job other than the paycheck.
So now I am back to square one. The Real Estate business is okay but I'm just realizing that I just feel dead if I'm not working at a job where I feel I can somehow help people. I want to do something that makes me feel fulfilled and like I'm actually doing something for the good of others.
I just don't know what that is but through my experience last week I've realized that I just can't settle for feeling mediocre and unfulfilled. I really don't know where to go from here but I feel like I've gained some perspective and I just know I have to be true to myself and to who God created me to be and how He created me to feel. I don't know where that will lead me - I wish I did in fact but until I do know I just gotta be patient and somehow learn to take heart with the unfulfillment I feel in my life right now and just trust that something better is just around the corner. Hopefully I'll get to that corner quickly but until I do I just want to be faithful with where God has me now.
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