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I feel like I've really been challenged in the recent weeks and months in the area of faith. Not so much that I don't have faith, but more that so often I don't have enough faith.
I tend to underestimate God and not believe Him for good things when really He is wanting to give me the best. If you've talked to me lately it's not really much of a secret that I have the baby bug. I finally feel like I'm getting to the point where I'm ready to start a family (it doesn't help that Jacqueline reminds me almost daily that my clock is ticking and we need to have kids before it's to late) and surprisingly Steve is as well. Realistically it is probably the WORST timing ever for us to even think about kids, beings that we have no health insurance and Steve doesn't have a job right now. So, obviously although it's a desire of ours, its not even something we're wanting to pursue right now as we both know it would be selfishness on our parts to bring a child into the world that we can't even care for. But, I do feel that God has been challenging me to believe Him for bigger things.
All that being said, I'm reminded that we serve a good God who knows the desires of our hearts and wants to bring us good gifts. I've found that so many times I don't have a problem with asking God for little things, but I kind of refrain from asking him for big things because I don't want to seem selfish. He's been reminding me though that I can believe him for big things because He really does want to blow us away with His blessings if we'd just ask Him to.
So many times I let the reality of life cloud my vision of how big God really is and it causes me to believe Him for less. Really though true reality is that "I have not because I ask not."
I do want to choose to believe God for a great job for Steve even though our economy is rough. I know that my God is not a God that sits up in heaven and watches His children be dissapointed because they have dreams and desires that they believe will never be fulfilled. I know that the dreams and desires that I have come from God, so why would I choose to not believe that He can fulfill them? I feel ashamed that so many times I choose to believe him for small things when He really wants to give me GREAT things.
It's time I start believing God for more and I'm excited to see how proves His faithfulness to us again and again in the midst of what the rest of that world would call a hopeless situation.
I tend to underestimate God and not believe Him for good things when really He is wanting to give me the best. If you've talked to me lately it's not really much of a secret that I have the baby bug. I finally feel like I'm getting to the point where I'm ready to start a family (it doesn't help that Jacqueline reminds me almost daily that my clock is ticking and we need to have kids before it's to late) and surprisingly Steve is as well. Realistically it is probably the WORST timing ever for us to even think about kids, beings that we have no health insurance and Steve doesn't have a job right now. So, obviously although it's a desire of ours, its not even something we're wanting to pursue right now as we both know it would be selfishness on our parts to bring a child into the world that we can't even care for. But, I do feel that God has been challenging me to believe Him for bigger things.
All that being said, I'm reminded that we serve a good God who knows the desires of our hearts and wants to bring us good gifts. I've found that so many times I don't have a problem with asking God for little things, but I kind of refrain from asking him for big things because I don't want to seem selfish. He's been reminding me though that I can believe him for big things because He really does want to blow us away with His blessings if we'd just ask Him to.
So many times I let the reality of life cloud my vision of how big God really is and it causes me to believe Him for less. Really though true reality is that "I have not because I ask not."
I do want to choose to believe God for a great job for Steve even though our economy is rough. I know that my God is not a God that sits up in heaven and watches His children be dissapointed because they have dreams and desires that they believe will never be fulfilled. I know that the dreams and desires that I have come from God, so why would I choose to not believe that He can fulfill them? I feel ashamed that so many times I choose to believe him for small things when He really wants to give me GREAT things.
It's time I start believing God for more and I'm excited to see how proves His faithfulness to us again and again in the midst of what the rest of that world would call a hopeless situation.
1 Comments:
I can relate! So many times I feel bad asking for more from God when He's already blessed me so much already, but I know that's not his heart for me.
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