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Since I've been up here in Madison I've come to hate the weekends. For some reason they're lonelier than during the week even if I have stuff going on. Steve & I usually cherish our weekends - especially Saturday and it just sucks being here and knowing he's back in StL and we're not together.
I am so ready for this season to be over. It seems like it's getting harder every day. It's nice having Dale & Jacq here because at least it's not so quiet, but in some ways it makes me miss Steve even more as I watch them explore the city and get adjusted here together. It sucks for us that I've had to get adjusted on my own and then once Steve gets here I'll already be used to a new city and he'll have to get used to it on his own.
I just miss him so much and would do just about anything in the entire world to have him here with me. These last 2 weeks have been especially hard and here lately it just feels like every passing day without him here gets worse and worse.
I'm just so frustrated with our situation and feel like I'm constantly asking God what He's doing and what it is He's trying to teach me through this season. Whatever it is I just wish I knew what it was so I could get to learning and move on - with my husband here that is.
I had 2 more job interviews today - one was a second interview that sounds promising and another was a first interview that sounded like they were interested in setting up a second interview. I really don't think I have all the skills for the place I had the first interview at today, so I'd be kind of surprised if that one worked out. At this point I'll just take pretty much any job as long as it means my husband can finally move here and we can live together again.
I'm really trying to hang in there and be positive, but I have my moments where I just want to cry because I'm so frustrated, lonely, sad, discouraged and feel downright hopeless. I keep praying that this season would end soon, but it's been 9 weeks of saying that prayer and I just feel at a loss at to what I should do next.
I guess in the meantime I'll just try and get some sleep and enjoy the fact that I have a huge bed all to myself...then again it's hard to enjoy that fact when having a huge bed all to myself is the very reason I can't fall asleep in the first place. *sigh*
I am so ready for this season to be over. It seems like it's getting harder every day. It's nice having Dale & Jacq here because at least it's not so quiet, but in some ways it makes me miss Steve even more as I watch them explore the city and get adjusted here together. It sucks for us that I've had to get adjusted on my own and then once Steve gets here I'll already be used to a new city and he'll have to get used to it on his own.
I just miss him so much and would do just about anything in the entire world to have him here with me. These last 2 weeks have been especially hard and here lately it just feels like every passing day without him here gets worse and worse.
I'm just so frustrated with our situation and feel like I'm constantly asking God what He's doing and what it is He's trying to teach me through this season. Whatever it is I just wish I knew what it was so I could get to learning and move on - with my husband here that is.
I had 2 more job interviews today - one was a second interview that sounds promising and another was a first interview that sounded like they were interested in setting up a second interview. I really don't think I have all the skills for the place I had the first interview at today, so I'd be kind of surprised if that one worked out. At this point I'll just take pretty much any job as long as it means my husband can finally move here and we can live together again.
I'm really trying to hang in there and be positive, but I have my moments where I just want to cry because I'm so frustrated, lonely, sad, discouraged and feel downright hopeless. I keep praying that this season would end soon, but it's been 9 weeks of saying that prayer and I just feel at a loss at to what I should do next.
I guess in the meantime I'll just try and get some sleep and enjoy the fact that I have a huge bed all to myself...then again it's hard to enjoy that fact when having a huge bed all to myself is the very reason I can't fall asleep in the first place. *sigh*
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