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Can ya'll believe that November is almost over already? I remember when I was a kid, it seems like I was always wishing my life away until I could be an "adult" and my granda (who was perhaps probably one of the worlds greatest men, in my opinion) would always tell me "just wait until you get older kid, then you'll wish you could slow time down."
At the time I couldn't fathom feeling that way, but now in just my 28 years of life I completely understand what he meant. Life really does pass you by if your not careful. With every passing year, I inch closer to 30, and after that I'm sure I'll pick up the pace and jog a little quicker on to 40.
I have to keep reminding myself to stop and smell the roses.
I always get to thinking about this time phenonmenon when I think about events of the last year. For instance last year at this time Steve was a groomsman in Nathan and Jamies wedding. I remember that day - it was freezing! Missy & I were practically sprinting (in our high heels mind you) to get out of the cold from the parking garage down the street a few blocks away from their reception at Windows on Washington. When I look back to that day though it seems like it was just weeks ago not a whole year.
Steve was also in another wedding last Thanksgiving in California. When he mentioned the other day that he'd like to go visit his family over there in California I remember telling him "we were just there a few months ago, can't we wait awhile till we make another visit?"
Time is crazy ya'll! Don't let life pass you by! I find myself thinking about this at least on a weekly basis. It causes me to constantly be re-evaluatiing my life and what I'm doing with it.
I find that it sometimes is a tug of war and I keep being reminded of the story of the tortoise and the hare. Slow and steady wins the race, right? I understand that life isn't a race, but I always seem to find confusion between living life to the fullest today and preparing for the life that I'm going to have tomorrow. I'll be honest and admit that I don't really "love" the life I'm living right now. I'm unsatisfied with a lot of things in my life. At the same time though, I feel that this is where God has me for now. That's why it's sometimes a struggle. I know that God must be preparing to bring rain to the drought I'm kind of feeling in life right now.
Maybe that's why I'm reminded of the tortoise and hare....because just around the corner is the finish line for this season. At least I hope so.
While I continue on in this leg of the race for this season of life though, I can't help but be unsatisfied with my unsatisfaction. Does that make any sense whatsoever?
I want time to slow down, but I still seem to find myself wishing it away, just like I did when I was a kid, just so that I can enter a different season of life than what I'm in. Really....I'm just waiting for another race. A race with struggles, joy, triumphs and defeat.
Will life always be this way? I feel like I'm constantly stopping to smell the roses, just so that I can say I did, but in my heart I'm really just waiting to see what life has in store for me just around the corner.
It's seems kind of ridiculous doesn't it? Maybe I just need to set more goals for my life, maybe I just need to show more follow through with the goals I have set right now.
I'm not really sure about many of these questions, but I do know that God is faithful and He has me in this season for a purpose and I really am learning a lot. Because of that it all seems worth it......at least at this exact moment in time, just because I'm feeling optimistic. :)
At the time I couldn't fathom feeling that way, but now in just my 28 years of life I completely understand what he meant. Life really does pass you by if your not careful. With every passing year, I inch closer to 30, and after that I'm sure I'll pick up the pace and jog a little quicker on to 40.
I have to keep reminding myself to stop and smell the roses.
I always get to thinking about this time phenonmenon when I think about events of the last year. For instance last year at this time Steve was a groomsman in Nathan and Jamies wedding. I remember that day - it was freezing! Missy & I were practically sprinting (in our high heels mind you) to get out of the cold from the parking garage down the street a few blocks away from their reception at Windows on Washington. When I look back to that day though it seems like it was just weeks ago not a whole year.
Steve was also in another wedding last Thanksgiving in California. When he mentioned the other day that he'd like to go visit his family over there in California I remember telling him "we were just there a few months ago, can't we wait awhile till we make another visit?"
Time is crazy ya'll! Don't let life pass you by! I find myself thinking about this at least on a weekly basis. It causes me to constantly be re-evaluatiing my life and what I'm doing with it.
I find that it sometimes is a tug of war and I keep being reminded of the story of the tortoise and the hare. Slow and steady wins the race, right? I understand that life isn't a race, but I always seem to find confusion between living life to the fullest today and preparing for the life that I'm going to have tomorrow. I'll be honest and admit that I don't really "love" the life I'm living right now. I'm unsatisfied with a lot of things in my life. At the same time though, I feel that this is where God has me for now. That's why it's sometimes a struggle. I know that God must be preparing to bring rain to the drought I'm kind of feeling in life right now.
Maybe that's why I'm reminded of the tortoise and hare....because just around the corner is the finish line for this season. At least I hope so.
While I continue on in this leg of the race for this season of life though, I can't help but be unsatisfied with my unsatisfaction. Does that make any sense whatsoever?
I want time to slow down, but I still seem to find myself wishing it away, just like I did when I was a kid, just so that I can enter a different season of life than what I'm in. Really....I'm just waiting for another race. A race with struggles, joy, triumphs and defeat.
Will life always be this way? I feel like I'm constantly stopping to smell the roses, just so that I can say I did, but in my heart I'm really just waiting to see what life has in store for me just around the corner.
It's seems kind of ridiculous doesn't it? Maybe I just need to set more goals for my life, maybe I just need to show more follow through with the goals I have set right now.
I'm not really sure about many of these questions, but I do know that God is faithful and He has me in this season for a purpose and I really am learning a lot. Because of that it all seems worth it......at least at this exact moment in time, just because I'm feeling optimistic. :)
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