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I've been thinking about my attitude a lot lately and I feel Iike I'm constantly being challenged about what I believe about myself and my circumstances.
These last few days in everything I've done it seems like I keep learning about the power of a positive attitude and the power of positive words.
I can be a very positive person, when I'm talking with other people about their problems I always seem to see the glass half full, but it seems like as soon as the focus is on me and MY problems the glass immediately becomes half empty.
This REALLY bothers me. I realize that most of the time life really isn't at bad as I internally make it out to be.....in fact....I have it pretty darn good.
I'm not sure why I tend to be so negative, both internally in my thoughts and outwardly with my words, but I think part of it is because of the way of life that I've adapted to.
I believe it's the Gin Blossoms that have a line in their song "jealousy" that says "if you don't expect too much of me you might not be let down" and that seems to be the way I live sometimes. It's not only the way I prefer to let others percieve me, but it's the way I tend to percieve myself. Sometimes it seems easier to sit on the sidelines without any hope because then there's not a chance of being dissapointed. I find it easy to live this way, it allows me to feel protected.
In reality though this is simply a PITIFUL way to live. I might as well just spend the rest of my life sleeping in my bed if I choose to let this attitude dictate the way I live my life. By choosing to live in negativity I'm simply just missing out on all the fullness that God has for me to experience in life.
I remember when Steve and I first started dating I had this HUGE fear that he would hurt me. I was so afraid actually that I almost didn't even begin dating him in the first place, I even told him this. One day though I had this realization that loving someone is all about the risk. I could choose to live the rest of my life by myself out of fear of being hurt or I could take a risk....knowing that he could indeed break my heart, but also knowing that there was a chance that he could be the love of my life. I am SO glad that I took a risk and didn't allow negativity to take root in my heart and cause me to miss out on the joy of experiencing so much love.
Sometimes the attitude is half the battle to a fulfilled life. I want to choose to think positively with the little bumps that seem to catch me off guard on this road of life. Of course there's a thing called reality that I can't deny, but instead of believing the worst - about myself, others and my circumstances I want to make a choice to think on the good things and not dwell on the bad.
These last few days in everything I've done it seems like I keep learning about the power of a positive attitude and the power of positive words.
I can be a very positive person, when I'm talking with other people about their problems I always seem to see the glass half full, but it seems like as soon as the focus is on me and MY problems the glass immediately becomes half empty.
This REALLY bothers me. I realize that most of the time life really isn't at bad as I internally make it out to be.....in fact....I have it pretty darn good.
I'm not sure why I tend to be so negative, both internally in my thoughts and outwardly with my words, but I think part of it is because of the way of life that I've adapted to.
I believe it's the Gin Blossoms that have a line in their song "jealousy" that says "if you don't expect too much of me you might not be let down" and that seems to be the way I live sometimes. It's not only the way I prefer to let others percieve me, but it's the way I tend to percieve myself. Sometimes it seems easier to sit on the sidelines without any hope because then there's not a chance of being dissapointed. I find it easy to live this way, it allows me to feel protected.
In reality though this is simply a PITIFUL way to live. I might as well just spend the rest of my life sleeping in my bed if I choose to let this attitude dictate the way I live my life. By choosing to live in negativity I'm simply just missing out on all the fullness that God has for me to experience in life.
I remember when Steve and I first started dating I had this HUGE fear that he would hurt me. I was so afraid actually that I almost didn't even begin dating him in the first place, I even told him this. One day though I had this realization that loving someone is all about the risk. I could choose to live the rest of my life by myself out of fear of being hurt or I could take a risk....knowing that he could indeed break my heart, but also knowing that there was a chance that he could be the love of my life. I am SO glad that I took a risk and didn't allow negativity to take root in my heart and cause me to miss out on the joy of experiencing so much love.
Sometimes the attitude is half the battle to a fulfilled life. I want to choose to think positively with the little bumps that seem to catch me off guard on this road of life. Of course there's a thing called reality that I can't deny, but instead of believing the worst - about myself, others and my circumstances I want to make a choice to think on the good things and not dwell on the bad.
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this is a lesson that I'm constantly learning too!
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