Confusion

Have you ever had one of those days where you just woke up feeling frustrated for no particular reason?
Today is one of those days for me. I'm not sure why but from the moment I put my feet on the floor I've been feeling frustrated about life and confused about a lot of the things that are happening.
Speaking of confusion....yesterday while I was running through some errands I had the "family talk" channel on my XM radio and I was listening to a Joyce Meyers teaching. She was talking about confusion. Really confusion occurs mostly when we're try to figure out the things we don't understand (well, duh).
I'm all about thinking....I may not be the smartest girl in the world but sometimes I tend to overthink things. I replay scenarios in my mind and it drives me crazy. Sometimes when I'm dealing with things in life I LET myself become completely confused by the simple things simply because I think and disect them too much.
Really though sometimes I think my confusion simply comes from my lack of faith in God. Of course many times it's because I simply don't understand something, but lots of times it's because I DO in fact understand and choose to not be satisfied with my understanding.
I doubt I"m making sense, but that's okay.

If any of you know me you know why it is so funny that all these thoughts on confusion and faith in God were brought about by a joyce meyers teachings. It's quite ironic actually given some of the circumstances of my life right now. I have been so frustrated with this job situation, (see "Interview #2",and"justa job interview"). I actually called back yesterday about this job to check on the status of things and guess what I heard?
It's probably not hard to guess.....but I heard the same thing I heard 2 weeks ago! "You're application is still being processed - why don't you give us a call back in another 2 weeks if you haven't heard anything." I'm getting used to these words from this company where I REALLY want a job. If it weren't for the fact that I wanted this job SO badly I would just forget it.
Anyway....back to the point of confusion. The reason why it relates to me with this instance right now is because both Steve and I are so confused about this job situation. We're praying people. We believe that God speaks to us. That is why it's SO funny because we both have prayed and felt such a peace about me working at this company. So much in fact that I haven't even been searching for jobs at places elsewhere. Naturally because I'm not accepting new clients right now with the Real Estate since I'm hoping to change careers we're starting to get to the point where I REALLY need a different job. When Steve got hired at the company where I want to work it was a week long process. So far they have given me 2 interviews and have been processing my application for 5 weeks now.
Naturally I'm starting to get antsy. That's where the confusion comes in.
I WANT to believe that this is what God has for me because both Steve and I really felt good about me working there, BUT I'm starting to get confused about the timeline.
Is God simply trying to teach me something through the situation and maybe that's why he gave me a peace about the job in the first place....or am I supposed to hold on and wait because He really DOES want me to work there? That's what I'm not sure about. I am very confused, but I wonder if this confusion simply comes from the fact that I'm afraid to trust what I felt God spoke to me. You see....I'm doing it again...disecting things. I'm trying so hard to figure out what God is trying to teach through the situation that I'm most likely missing the point because I'm so wrapped up in the circumstance at the moment.
I love that God has the ability to see the big picture when I see simply the moment. I guess that's what makes him God after all, right?
Anyway....so those are some of the thoughts in my head this morning. They're not too deep but they sure are confusing...well, at least to me.