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We had some friends over last night that were recently married.
The wife was telling me how she had just started going back to school but is hesitant to really pursue getting a 4 year degree when they're planning on having kids in about 2 years and just how frustrating it is to not know exactly what our next steps should be in life.
I could so relate to everything she was saying.
I have been feeling the same way lately actually. I think when I first got married I had this magical idea that I would be so fulfilled with just being a wife to the love of my life that nothing else would really matter. To a degree I've found that to be true - but only to the healthy degree. I've found that the things that are important to Steve have now become equally as important to me.
At the same time I've realized though that I am my own person and just as I support him he wants to support me.
Sometimes I get so scared of the future, I want it all mapped out. I want to know exactly what I'm going to be doing 10 years from now. Yes, I admit it : I tend to be a planner and a control freak. I've realized though the process of life that if I new it all the joy would be taken out of the journey.
Most of the times it's what I learn through process of making decisions and major life changes that really change me the most. If there were no process the end result wouldn't really matter at all anyway.
So....as I continue to ponder "what do I want to be when I'm all grown up" I'm learning to just enjoy the ride and take each day at a time. I don't know my future but I believe that every little stepping stone along the way is what really creates the path to my destiny, and I'm trying to just be "ok" with that.
The wife was telling me how she had just started going back to school but is hesitant to really pursue getting a 4 year degree when they're planning on having kids in about 2 years and just how frustrating it is to not know exactly what our next steps should be in life.
I could so relate to everything she was saying.
I have been feeling the same way lately actually. I think when I first got married I had this magical idea that I would be so fulfilled with just being a wife to the love of my life that nothing else would really matter. To a degree I've found that to be true - but only to the healthy degree. I've found that the things that are important to Steve have now become equally as important to me.
At the same time I've realized though that I am my own person and just as I support him he wants to support me.
Sometimes I get so scared of the future, I want it all mapped out. I want to know exactly what I'm going to be doing 10 years from now. Yes, I admit it : I tend to be a planner and a control freak. I've realized though the process of life that if I new it all the joy would be taken out of the journey.
Most of the times it's what I learn through process of making decisions and major life changes that really change me the most. If there were no process the end result wouldn't really matter at all anyway.
So....as I continue to ponder "what do I want to be when I'm all grown up" I'm learning to just enjoy the ride and take each day at a time. I don't know my future but I believe that every little stepping stone along the way is what really creates the path to my destiny, and I'm trying to just be "ok" with that.
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