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It's been awhile.
I don't know if I haven't blogged more because of the fact that I've just been lazy or just because my life has been boring therefore there's nothing to write about. Probably a bit of both though. Hmmmmm..
So anyway...I've been thinking a lot and have been feeling so restless. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I'm just bored with how mundane life has seemed to be lately or maybe it's because I sense that something is getting ready to change.
Either way I just haven't felt comfortable, I guess that's a good thing though. I don't like feeling comfortable.
I've beenthinking a lot lately about my life and just how weird I'm wired.
I've kind of come to realize a few things about myself and I've had to be okay with that.
Namely what I'm referring to is my need for change - I used to think that I hated change (still even with some things I think i hate change) but I'm come to realize that change is what I thrive on.
I've been really contemplating my career lately and I've started to question if Real Estate is something that I want to do for the rest of my life. It has it's pro and cons but I'm starting to feel like I need a change in my career.
One thing I've had to come to grips with is that it's just the way I am that I try a new career for awhile and then decide I want to move on to something else. I don't think it's even that I don't like what I'm doing but more that I feel the need to be constantly challenged and once I no longer feel challenged I feel the need to move on to something else. Not to say I'm a know it all either but sometimes I just feel bored.
I"m starting to realize that this is a pattern in my life and I'm SO glad that I never spent a lot of money mastering a degree.
When I went to school for graphic design I loved it and thought I could do that for the rest of my life, until I got laid off at that job and realized I was kind of burnt out on graphic design anyway. After that I decided to become a Realtor and have been doing that about 2 years now and am starting to feel restless again, Part of me is starting to realize that it's okay that I am a person that thrives off of change but the other part of me just feels so frustrated that I spend some much time, energy, and money focusing on my career only to get bored and decide it's time for a career change.
I guess the good part of all of this is that I will be a very well rounded person with experience in a lot of different areas, but still sometimes I feel like a teenager trying to figure out what they want to do with the rest of their after they graduate from high school.
It used to really bother me that I felt this way because I felt like such a flake, but now I'm just kind of accepted the fact that this is the way I am and probably the way I'll always be so I might as well be proud of me.
It does leave me often times feeling frustrated though.....
Like right now, I'm wishing and hoping for something new but don't really have the time nor resources to even figure out what that "new" thing might be. I guess I still haven't figured out what I want to be when I'm a grown up and it's kind of an unsettling feeling.
I guess for now I'll just focus on being the best I can be at what I'm doing until God moves me onto something else.
I don't know if I haven't blogged more because of the fact that I've just been lazy or just because my life has been boring therefore there's nothing to write about. Probably a bit of both though. Hmmmmm..
So anyway...I've been thinking a lot and have been feeling so restless. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I'm just bored with how mundane life has seemed to be lately or maybe it's because I sense that something is getting ready to change.
Either way I just haven't felt comfortable, I guess that's a good thing though. I don't like feeling comfortable.
I've beenthinking a lot lately about my life and just how weird I'm wired.
I've kind of come to realize a few things about myself and I've had to be okay with that.
Namely what I'm referring to is my need for change - I used to think that I hated change (still even with some things I think i hate change) but I'm come to realize that change is what I thrive on.
I've been really contemplating my career lately and I've started to question if Real Estate is something that I want to do for the rest of my life. It has it's pro and cons but I'm starting to feel like I need a change in my career.
One thing I've had to come to grips with is that it's just the way I am that I try a new career for awhile and then decide I want to move on to something else. I don't think it's even that I don't like what I'm doing but more that I feel the need to be constantly challenged and once I no longer feel challenged I feel the need to move on to something else. Not to say I'm a know it all either but sometimes I just feel bored.
I"m starting to realize that this is a pattern in my life and I'm SO glad that I never spent a lot of money mastering a degree.
When I went to school for graphic design I loved it and thought I could do that for the rest of my life, until I got laid off at that job and realized I was kind of burnt out on graphic design anyway. After that I decided to become a Realtor and have been doing that about 2 years now and am starting to feel restless again, Part of me is starting to realize that it's okay that I am a person that thrives off of change but the other part of me just feels so frustrated that I spend some much time, energy, and money focusing on my career only to get bored and decide it's time for a career change.
I guess the good part of all of this is that I will be a very well rounded person with experience in a lot of different areas, but still sometimes I feel like a teenager trying to figure out what they want to do with the rest of their after they graduate from high school.
It used to really bother me that I felt this way because I felt like such a flake, but now I'm just kind of accepted the fact that this is the way I am and probably the way I'll always be so I might as well be proud of me.
It does leave me often times feeling frustrated though.....
Like right now, I'm wishing and hoping for something new but don't really have the time nor resources to even figure out what that "new" thing might be. I guess I still haven't figured out what I want to be when I'm a grown up and it's kind of an unsettling feeling.
I guess for now I'll just focus on being the best I can be at what I'm doing until God moves me onto something else.
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