decisions, decisions!

We had a nice fall weekend.
Steve was gone working at a womens conference downtown for the last few days so it was nice to have him home again.
We had some fun times going out to the country and all that jazz.


We had lotss of good quality processing time. We've both been feeling that we're on the verge of some kind of change in life. Not like the "we're gonna have a baby change" or anything like that. More like just we're in transition time. I've had enough change in the last year to last me awhile.
You'd think a new career, new house and new husband is enough for one year eh?

Anyway so we've been processing that and other things.
We've made a decision to not take over the music department at our church. We've been going back and forth for months and have not felt adequately equipped. We've asked to get a little more training and for a little more discipleship and it just hasn't happened.
We finally came to the conclusion that just because there's a need and it seems like we are the only that can fill the position doesn't mean it's necessarily the right thing to do.
We're discouraged because this is our heart. But we also know that unless a few things change and we get to a point where we feel we're ready to take on this huge extra responsibility it's not something we should be committing to.
Music is our passion but we don't want to let something we're passionate about rule over our rationality.
This has been a hard decision to make and something we've been going back and forth about for probably about the last 9 months and we felt like it was just time to cut things loose.

We both feel kind of a sense of relief that finally we've made a decision but bummed out as well because it sucks giving up your passion. We do feel it's for the best though. Who knows what will happen in the future anyway. Sometimes it works out where the minute you die to something that's all you really needed and then it comes back to life again.
I'm not looking, hoping or even expecting this, but the way life seems to work for us I wouldn't be suprised either.

So now.....on to the week - this time with a a lot less responsibility to worry about.